insecurity

uncertainty.maybe i think too much. i remember the days when the light was too dim and the house was too quiet, so inviting to over thinking. yes, the light was dim. it was blue. now it's gray. the shadows have come back to my room to taunt me when i try to sleep. my eyelids are playing tricks on me again. i can't sleep anymore. how am i supposed to solve this when my bed was left unmade from my last ordeal. i foolishly thought it was gonna make itself. it didn't.

what now?