uncertainty.maybe i think too much. i remember the days when the light was too dim and the house was too quiet, so inviting to over thinking. yes, the light was dim. it was blue. now it's gray. the shadows have come back to my room to taunt me when i try to sleep. my eyelids are playing tricks on me again. i can't sleep anymore. how am i supposed to solve this when my bed was left unmade from my last ordeal. i foolishly thought it was gonna make itself. it didn't.
i almost forgot how loosing your head feels like, but lately it came back to me. and not in a good way. words don't mean much to me but right now i feel like i can't hold it in anymore. i've held it in since i can remember and i need to spill it out somewhere. why can't the whole world go away?